I found out yesterday in the mall bathroom that I am once again pregnant... this is my 3rd pregnancy but i lost the other two. hopefully this time it works out. Acording to a due date predictor i am 5 weeks along.. my due date is September 4 2013.. that seems like ferever away!!!!!!! but time will fly i will make sure of it!!!!
so i am actually really excited about the lil baby.. i cant wait to meet them. im not to sure if when the time comes to find out the gender if i want to know or keep it a suprise for when the baby is born. but i do want to have a baby shower before the baby is born so i might end up finding out.
I'm really scared that this pregnancy will also end in a miscarriage but i am going to be extremely careful.. the first miscarriage was caused by falling on top of a shopping cart.. the second was cause by rough housing with my boyfriend... so this time i am not going to do anything that could jeopardize the life of my child. i am going to keep myself very calm and relaxed. keep myself from anything stressful that could upset me. and i am not going to do anything physically straining.
I'm not sure if i want a girl or a boy yet. i keep going back and forth. but either way i would be happy with either. i am not even sure of names yet. im thinking for a girl Gililand Renee.. pronouced like jillian. the weird spelling would be in honor of a good friend that died last year on september 2nd 2011. and the middle name renee is because that is a name my boyfriend really likes. for a boy i really like the name Bentley. and my boyfriend likes the name Lyrick so Bentley Lyrick. those are 2 names i have thought of so far but im not sure how my boyfriend would feel about them. ill have to talk to him about it later.
so far i have not told many people. there are only 6 people that know besides me and my boyfriend. my aunt Neena who was there when i took the first test. and my roommates Brian and MJ. then another person i live with named Jodi who is my boyfriends aunts. plus my boyfriends little brother Chris and also his father Gibson. i think im going to keep it this way for a little while until im further along and the fear of a miscarriage subsides a little bit more.
I have not made a doctors appointment yet. ill have to call my doctor on Monday and schedule an appointment. the bad thing about that is that they normally make appointment really early in the morning around 9:30am and i am really bad about getting up in the morning... so i guess i will have to get myself on a better sleeping schedule. hopefully the people i live with will be quiet enough to let this happen.
i have my certificate to be ab IHSS worker. i just have to find work. it shouldnt be too difficult but i have to do that this month so i can start saving up to get my own place before the little one gets here because there is no way i am going to raise a baby where i am living. there are cockroaches and mice in the house. it gets really cold at night plus the people here are not the cleanest. its just not a safe place for a baby in my opinion. my baby deserves better.
so my goals for this month will be:::
[ ] get on a better sleeping schedule (10pm to 9am)
[ ] find work
[ ] start saving money
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